i find that lately, i haven't been feeling depressed. for the past month or so, i've been in higher spirits, and generally in a good mood - a vast improvement from prior days and nights. i don't feel lonely anymore.

today, she told me about a boy who likes her, who's apparently quite attractive and appears to be a nice guy, but has no sense of vocabulary (for example, he doesn't know what the word 'moral' means. i mean, let's be honest, if you're in your twenties and you still don't know what moral means, there's something wrong). i think she was asking me this to get my reaction. keeping that in mind, i went along with it and told her to get him hooked on phonics, and that she could try it but, her being a writer, the relationship wouldn't last too long before she went berserk.

ooooooooooook! lahoma!

she asked me to do something i didn't really want to do.

she then said, "please sweetie".

:)

what a strange, familiar feeling...

once again, the urge to move out has risen from within, begging for it's leash to snap so i can run free. but the leash is weakened only with money, and i don't have enough to break it. so i run to the end of my chain and bark at what's outside, beyond my yard, hoarding whichever scraps of change i can find.

i've made a friend in oklahoma playing world of warcraft. we had one of those random spill-the-beans conversations where you tell a stranger things you'd only tell your closest of confidants. we've become friends on facebook, and i'm probably a little too excited at having met another person i can just speak to. but she understands my sense of humor, and we'll play/talk for hours, from sometimes 7:00 or 8:00 at night to as late as 6:30 the following morning. she doesn't trust people much either. really, we do have a lot in common. i don't know her side of the story, but i feel that we could become very close friends; i just get that vibe. you all know when you meet someone you know will be close to you. i know i was right once before, except i overanalyzed it. not this time.

furor mom has decreed that i stay up too late (i've been staying up for years until the wee hours of the morning - i just can't sleep), so she decided to unplug the internet at night. this is frustrating because she not only now guards the router until 3:30/4:00 (whenever she falls asleep) to ensure i don't restore power to it, it means that i can't do what i usually do to keep myself occupied (facebook, youtube, online games, more recently talking to my oklahomian friend). fortunately, there are some open networks that i can get into, but the reception isn't strong, and it's prone to randomly dropping, or being too weak to do anything with. but at times, it works fine, and at those times, it's like nothing ever happened to my internet.