old habits yield a familiar outcome

i need to stop second guessing myself. sure, i can allow for a change in feelings. but so suddenly, without warning? i'm overthinking again. how can i stop doing this? it's what i do best.

thinkthinkthinkthinkthinkthinkthink.

i've put some events into motion. if i ever get feedback on them, i'll have a better idea of where i stand, and from there i can find a sturdy place to stand, and i'll attempt once again to keep my balance.

p.s. - i hate my mother.