Monday, June 29, 2009

the malice of rumors

i should not have to defend my honor against people i risked it trying to help.

i should not be attacked by the person i aided, who is receiving information from the people i asked for aid, to help the person attacking me in the first place.

i should not be finding this out from this one person, while the others continue about their normal business.

i should not have to avoid a friend, regardless of how close, because of a rumor. because someone doesn't like me, because i attempted to prove that one a liar.

i should not have to be at the crossroads of a problem that isn't mine.

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i am EXTREMELY PISSED about this. you know that this doesn't happen easily. you all know that i'm one of the hardest people to truly insult, because i just don't care. well, my friends, it's been done. someone has dubbed me untrustworthy without giving reason for it. i am NOT a liar. i lie, because i am human, and therefore prone to sins, but i honor truth more than most. i am deeply cut. until i find out what's going on, one can expect that i'll be not quite the most pleasant person to deal with, or at least, not as pleasant as usual. i will however, make efforts to subdue my emotions, so that you, my friends, will not be afflicted by problems that aren't your own. for, you do not deserve to suffer them, or their effects.

Saturday, June 27, 2009

a supercell begins it's domination over my lands
ten thousand Flame Queens cry, red and gold
their tears are mine

a squall erupts and Zeus sends forth volleys with his acclaimed accuracy
Thor, too, screams a battlecry as Mjǫllnir strikes with a bang
my lands are torn and shattered
these lands are my flesh
yet i am unscathed.

i long for the fire rainbow to give light
for the trail of the Valkyrjur to guide me to safety
for Apollo's chariot to break through the derecho

or, i must feel the trees being rooted from their soil
i must feel the ground splitting under the tectonic pressures
i must know what it is to lose a part of myself

i, too, must learn patience.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

B.A.M.F.

i love urbandictionary for certain reasons. one of those happens to be entry #4 for the definition of "B.A.M.F."

i love it so much, i'm going to share it with you.


B.A.M.F.
neville longbottom
*Quotable B.A.M.F. Moments* 

"What? This?" Neville dismissed his injuries with a shake of his head. "This is nothing." 

"Alecto, Amycus' sister, teaches Muggle Studies, which is compulsory for everyone. We've all got to listen to her explain how Muggles are like animals, stupid and dirty, and how they drove wizards into hiding by being vicious toward them, and how the natural order is being reestablished. I got this one," he indicated another slash to his face, "for asking how much Muggle blood she and her brother have got." 
"Blimey, Neville," said Ron, "there's a time and a place for getting a smart mouth." 
"You didn't hear her," said Neville. 

"But they've used you as a knife sharpener," said Ron...Neville shrugged.

"Neville's the man!" 

"We used to sneak out at night and put graffiti on the walls." 

"Mandrakes!" Neville bellowed at Harry over his shoulder as he ran. "Going to lob them over the walls--they won't like this!" 

"Have you seen my grandson?" 
"He's fighting," said Harry. 
"Naturally." 

Someone had broken free of the crowd and charged at Voldemort. 

"I'll join you when hell freezes over," said Neville. 

With a single stroke Neville sliced off the great snake's head, which spun high into the air, gleaming in the light flooding from the entrance hall... 

Some old-school BAMF: "I'm worth twelve of you, Malfoy." 
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Wednesday, June 17, 2009

not quite destiny

what's out there?

if i had a wish, i would want to turn into a bird and fly.

leave the ground behind and soar up to the great beyond and find out.

Saturday, June 13, 2009

the skate park II

day 4: june 11th

rain. went to cromwell; looked important and too busy to be bothered. found mary at the end of the day, and personally spoke with her about the situation at skate park. got a medal of commendation for above and beyond display of bravery on the battlefield. a letter was dispatched; reinforcements should arrive shortly.

day 4b: june 12th

despite my best efforts, rain did not come on time. i wasn't sure what to expect. were they going to tape me to a ramp and ollie off my head? were they just going to plain beat the shit out of me? perhaps they had talked and realized that i did the right thing? nah, they probably don't even remember it.

upon entering, i got a few glares, but after i ignored them, things went about as usual. with one exception. reinforcements had arrived. i met angelica and monica, the two women who would be taking my shift. i recognized them from my second day out there; they were hanging out with the kids. monica looks like natalee portman, in my opinion. not totally, but it was enough to make me wonder, "who the hell does she look like?"

today was a pretty laid back day. i spent about half of it guarding one of the kids' bag, and the other half talking to the girls. angelica is a bit quiet, but not really timid. monica is louder, but she's gullible, and immature enough to be able to level with the kids. also, she's a photography major at one of the arts schools in manhattan (i forget which one). their motto is "yell, yell, yell". i submit that i like having a voice and not being hoarse, and considering that my yelling voice doesn't really carry all that well, i'm going to stick to my "you don't fuck with me, i don't fuck with you" tactic. not that either method is particularly effective. we'll see.

angelica said that she wants to start cracking down sunday. i can't anticipate what it'll be like, but it sure as hell is going to be nice to not be alone.

oh, angelica is the only one on a line; monica doesn't officially start until july, but the two are apparently really close friends, so i assume i'll be seeing them both in a few days.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

bauer's on facebook

el. oh. el.

i so added him haha

Sunday, June 7, 2009

the skate park

between my times as director of kids on stage, i am bound by the department of parks and recreation (dpr) to deliver a solid fifteen hours a week of labor of some sort. for the month of june, my shackles have been locked to the skate park, located on father capodanno drive, near jefferson. thursdays, fridays and sundays (weather permitting, of course), i am to report there and make sure no one dies.

day 1: may 28th

rain. instead, i went to the cromwell center and dressed up as the genie from aladdin to be a greeter for the aladdin puppet show, hosted by the afterschool program.

day 1b: may 29th

my twenty-first birthday. not that i celebrate my birthdays, but i had a party to attend that evening and so was anxious to get out of work. it's also my first day here. i'm not used to people skating, biking, scooting or roller blading, so i'm naturally very nervous that someone's going to get hurt. "relax," said mike, the biker. "kids fall here all the time. if they don't get back up, then you have a problem."

well, not even an hour before i have to leave, i hear, "matt, come quick!" a kid is down. blood. he's split his lip open. i have nothing to clean the blood with, and the nearby office is closed. all i can do is fill out an accident report, and i do so. fortunately, two of the kids present were cousins with poor charlie who fell, and called his mother directly. it turned out that he needed five stitches in his lip and two on his chin, but i find that out on...

day 2: may 31st

it's my first sunday. 11:30 - 7:00 with a half hour lunch. i go in, a bit more prepared for what is to happen. i meet a bigger kid who goes by the nickname 'chex mix', or, simply, 'chex'. he explains to me what 'getting whopped' is (jackie, this was a gloin on my part. for those who don't know what it is, all i'll say is - b.j. anyone?). he also tells me about the different teams, like 'team fupa'. he explains that there is a group of girls who enter the park but don't skate, and they are called 'the ramp tramps'.

well, as the day goes on, the park fills up with between fifty and sixty people, all hanging out, riding, skooting, biking, whatnot. a grill shows up and people are cooking. i don't know that this is a problem, but someone did and called the parks police. they then asked me how i could allow grilling to go on, as well as drinking and drugs. (excuse me? drinking and drugs? i KNOW those are illegal.) i explained that it was my second day on the job, and that i'm here by myself. after that, the parks officer told me to make routine checks around just to make sure no one was doing anything stupid. i made a few rounds, and talked to some of the kids. "they're crazy, but not bad," i thought. i figured it would be a cake job, not anticipating the next week.

day 3: june 4th

rain. went to greenbelt. talked kids on stage.

day 3b: june 5th

rain. again. went to greenbelt. again. talked kids on stage. again. decided on doing "cats". *slaps hand* what a horrible idea.

day 3c: june 7th

it's not as crowded as last week. in fact, only half as packed. mike the biker brought his rottweiler. i told him to be careful that she not use the park as a bathroom. he assured me that it was okay, and that she wasn't aggressive. she was definitely docile, but a bit skittish, and was apparently afraid of humans.

as the day progresses, one kid, vin (who's probably thirteen or fourteen), decides he's going to fuck with me, by stealing my stuff and hiding it. "he's joking," i tell myself, and i ask for it back. instead, he runs around the park with another kid, playing keep away. now, in the crate that he took, i had helmets that people were supposed to be wearing (oh yes, people are supposed to wear helmets while on the ramps; no one ever does), band-aids, a sign-in sheet, incident reports, and other important paperwork. i'm starting to get annoyed, so i pretend to get really pissed off and i eventually get it back. however, the kid just didn't know when to stop, and kept trying to fuck with me.

i get him to leave me alone, and i'm watching some of the kids scoot. this one kid was doing these AMAZING tricks on a scooter. triple flips while spinning it underneath him as he's somersaulting, and lands on the ramp and continues to scoot. on woman who was watching, bumped into bell (the rottweiler). that was the end of that. she FREAKED out. her leash was tied to the bottom of the bench, so she didn't have much room to go, but man she moved fast. she knocked over someones drink, and her leash pinched my calf against the bench, leaving a nice blood blister. not only that, but the incident literally scared the shit out of her. we called mike over to clean it up, but he had no bags. we found a few from people's lunches and covered the rest up with paper.

i found a piece that he missed, so i took on of my spare forms and used it to throw out the poopie. i turn around, and my box is gone again. i find vin, and tell him, "listen. as long as i get it back before i leave, i'm okay. i'm not going to flip out." he says, "i have no clue what you're talking about." well, now i'm pissed.

a good ten minutes later, vin tells me that he doesn't know anything about it, and he's asked around; him and the other kid offer to help me locate it. then, someone turns up a helmet, and i find out another two are in the bowl (a giant bowl the kids skate in). i go in, and there they are. then, i find my box and the last helmet. in the piss corner.

no. fucking. way.

someone peed in one of the helmets.

people are eating on the ramps.

my band-aids are littering the floor.

everyone has a limit.

i go out to the office, and request parks police. while we wait, we see what looks like a fight brew, but it quickly dissipates. sure enough, one kid (i forget his name, but he's always been good about rules and such) comes to tell me that a fight did indeed occur. one of the women eating pizza on the ramps was saying how she shouldn't get yelled at, and the kid defended me, and he wound up getting pushed. he did nothing, which was wise, but the fight didn't escalate, because she and her friends left.

the parks police showed up, and with their assistance, we closed the park temporarily to clean. i found my four helmets (one was missing the foam inside, one was missing a clip, and one was covered in urine), three band-aids, and my other paperwork. we let people back in, but they have to wear helmets. well, some kids just won't listen. i reminded a few of them to wear helmets repeatedly.

let me quickly define remind: screaming "GET OFF THE RAMPS! YOU! HELMET! NOW! GET OFF!"

since they wouldn't listen and i was going hoarse, i decided to shut down the park for good for the day. i had the assistance of the parks police, and we shut it down, much to the dismay of the kids, who had a lot of things to say, and of course knew exactly what they were talking about because they were thirteen and fourteen on average.

i stayed until seven to make sure no one snuck back in, and spoke civilly with some of the remaining kids, who had, not a half hour ago, given me a few pieces of their minds. i wound up giving one of them a ride home, since he didn't live far from me.

tomorrow, i'm calling my boss and demanding that i get at least another person to assist me, because i really don't want to have to do this again. i felt awful for the kids who did nothing wrong, and i hate punishing the masses for the crimes of the few, but in that situation, it was the best thing i could've done.

oy. hopefully next week'll be better off. maybe they'll wear helmets. HA.